pretty tiring day

phew....wake up early to gt ready...
ytd was quite cool cuz wen i read a msg from khai.n it wasnt the gal khai.
so i gt a little blur.

anw....today came earlier....at 930?start gym first...khai(ncc) came later than agreed...bt yeah.
so he start doin weight....n i was tired by then n v weak:Pmaybe tis is n excuse....

b4 goin hm i wen to the library...
borrow some comic.
wen hm eat.n eat.n eat.
slp.

woke up at 7...study abit.like 30mins?damn n yeah finish nw im tired again

brothers....

today came sch...didnt wanna tlk to k.was waitin 4 him to say i wrong tink n will f.
bt then saw him sweepin floor.
abit funny....

then he tlk.i tot he ok.bt then wen i watch.it was pretty dissapointin.bt didnt care.

blabla.he nid help i help.
then math ms normala tell him write report on sumtin.he like use it against me...so i call jon aside n tell him wat to do.
blabla.

recess we nv reli tlk.both noe tat both wan start a fight....
the bdae celeb jon was cute.he was like takin me 4 wat his lil bro?huggin me n stuff.
then thr was one part ben kip gtin hit from collin...well i tot it was fun...till rai tell me to tell them stop.i tink i luk angry wen i tell collin to stop n jon n others try act funny to tell me cool...:P

blabla.
after prayers came back tis time made up my mind to tlk to kumar.bt then kumar tell me he miss me n hug me abit.i puss him a little n tell him i m piss w him bt wen he like "eh khalid"i like k la...we gay hug...(he gay hug me)
n we cool...

n YEAh nazrul back.one best bro.he sms me.i hapiiiiiiiiiiiiii.haha.miss those time.hope to c him soon:D

me ego.u bullshit.

lets start w the fuck up side.

well kinda argue w one of the bro.sumtin gt to do w he say sumtin.i felt it was n insult n challenge.ask the other 3 to tell me.cuz i noe they noe sumtin.at last v didnt tell me n end up my"stead" tell me.so tat please me.

a little fuck up w fuckin bzbody fuck hu wan fuck my fuck life.y i nt fuck gd nuf?fuck den don act gd.

hate it fuck.

however on the lighter side....
it was fairly a good day w teachers.
n staff from bowen wen the aunties we callin me their son?...abit random bt yea.
at 130 play soccer.well win.close fight.collin join my team wen he saw us playin.cn say he is good?
he try his best.3 shot on target.1 block.power.

after tat waited ms normala.her class was cancelled.she told melinda.probably after we wlk away n melinda nv tell us...
play at field.tore my shirt after i save javier shot.
blabla.the f ting soon hapen...

hApi siol

came to sch.

feel damn wik.
so math i sit one corner
blabla.v tired....
eng was gd.ms chua was nice to 'act' out the interview w me.the others was nice to gv me support...:D
wen i wan go i felt reli hapi wen even collin came n shake hand n say encouragin words.
well i was lucky.

reach Singapore poly at 2.50.mit shar.gd tink hy w me.nt so bored n don luk dumb wen lukin 4 shar...
woah sing poly f big...
at the office...it was cool.tlk to shar n jeremy

wen it was time 4 test thr were 5 others in the clas..n then the test start.
they asked abt newspaper report.so its pretty easy.
well s 4 the second question...it was good ting i hv practice w hy....
i went out b4 1 hr.
sit w hy n shar.tlk cock...
then next was interview....
three of us was interviewed at same time by 3 lecturer.
wen the first guy(adrian)ans it was like bloody accent!
n then emily too...
then me:D
every was given to 3 of us n we take turn to ans first.i didnt hear one of the question n end up askin again.wen we went out 3 of us was relieve:D
we tlk more n gt to know each other.one topic was abt the interview.then we xchange facebook.an indian gal came to me n say she noe me cuz saw me in fb.i nid nt say how n y she gt my fb.

then the next conversation was funny...here it goes
em:i tink television is v addictive.dont u agree
me:yeah.
ad:o ya
em:wat type of story interest u
ad:o i like to watch those kind of bitchy series u noe.like drop dead dive.u watch drop dead diva dont u?
me:nah
em:no!n i know ur type...especially wen u wlk n how u tlk.

BAM!confirm the guy paiseh.

then she asked me abt my interest n i guess we share the same interest:D
so ya separate from them n mit up w hy n shar:D

wat a cool day!
n thx bro 4 trustin me:)congrats!

flu flu go away....

today assembly was great!

mt was cool...

eng was...ok...

s.s was f...

today writin abit cuz im nt feelin well....hope tmr goes well w the interview

crazy day

shiok today w tis hairstyle.1st test finish.
yeah!
erm everytin wen well...xcept i hurt atiqah fingers...:Pso sori.she damn cute.i was holdin hot test tube...she came to me n then i show her the colour change n she old it...mayb 1 to 2 second?n she shout the f part i also nv realise tat....at last feel bad n wanted to bring her bag n stuf....lol...

recess was fun:Dcollin climb up....bent tat ting n then he jump off...lol
o shit second time physic i bcum blur.hate it.

math no normala...
acp was gd.hehe chio bu cum kacau.bt cnt tlk 4 long cuz nided to finish tat shit question....

straight go hm after sch...DAD LOVE YOU MAN!he save me:Dabit....

arh tmr

nid study bt end play a little game...

go east coast.jog abit.then home watch ghost rider.n green zone nw...
tired....
gd nite loveli ppl!

wat a luck

ytd nv on com.v tired...y ya?....forgot...bt i do rmb tat ytd i tot i was lucky.mr farid at assembly was standin so close to me.vellan was doin the stupid heartbeat thing n ben was like attracting farid's attention.i was like k kip cool kip cool....then mr farid stand bhind me.my heart race...then he wlk away phew....
fast foward...
wen goin mosque...we had second thought.so we use coin to decide whether to take test w others or go mosque.at last we go mosque n pray tat it rain heavily...i guess all of us had to much sin tat got make it hot.wat a luck....summore bloody hell at mosque farid cum to me hold my hair bhind n tell me to cut!!!FUCKKKKKKKK.............
the test was ok anw.borin bt ok.mostli fun part is bcuz mr shafiee...

today cut hair the tail.n i like fuck.my hair sucks!its funny!Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.hate it.arh wat a luck........oya today go library:)

some pic i random take from fb

racial harmony day...:D

yeah racial hramony!
bt abit spoil cuz rain...
came sch n call ben to gv me his costume...he broght baba(though alot say damn indon)
so then joined kumar n others:Dlook arnd n tis time gt sumtin special.alot of ppl costume to luk at:P
it was nice to c jon wearin his cute costume.alot of gal bcum damn chio...

then tings gt nice.everytin seems shiok today.
gals smillin guys droolin:D
take pic w sum ppl...wen wan take w hy jon was thr to tell us how to do.wen i say no he say i pussy.aiyah hu wont like.last yr i luckier gt alot of ppl hug...hehe

oya then gt a call from sp for med n com...aiyah...next wik test n interview...Y MUST TAKE TEST?!

oya...then heard abt tis teacher...i hate him...though hy told me i cnt hate tat much.i just do.n i guess my curse came true.sori cher...(i cant tell his name cuz sum ppl r from eunos readin tis)

mindef prob

oya gt mindef letter...then nv gt id n password...im so dead....kumar just gt his today....
i lost my last time paper.hope i find it.if nv register...$10000 gone!!!arh!!!!!!

tired siol...

tired sia today.came to sch kena collect s.s paper...
then blabla.
gt fire drill...damn sec 5 most noisy n childish....
oya i tink today is a day whr i gt tings done wen i say it.y?many reason...
first collin.he doesnt reli listen to instruction....bt just nw at field tell him sit here n thr he follow.until kumar say like eh power how cum he listten.


then s.s must collect money...collin came to my table n put damn lots of coin.i f fast gt piss n guess the others saw.rai told me to compose myself(thx rai)n then jon n aaron act funny.
haix....

then math ben cnt go class.i try my way of sms.(well ppl say i flirt.i sy i manipulate..)so usin my so call "skill" i want to try on ben..though w guys i did a different approach...
at last ben listen n say sori....

then recess wei jie was outside sch.mr see was telin him to come inside sch.he dowan.
i try again.n he follow.yes!damn hapi so i eat:P

then eng was norm...
a math was fun!all those racist n size jokes was funny!
then we gt 10 min break.me n vellan wan thrill n wan beat our 10 mins record.
so we time n ran out of sch to buy twisties n bbt:DWE DID IT IN 8 MINS!haha.ppl was like"eh how u do it"."eh tat was fast" n stuff...lol...then the chinese guys wanted to eat the twisties...
i let them eat abit.bcuz they didnt wanna share their food.rai say i was v firm.n then i like k mayb i was bad.then bloody hell aaron like just snatch the food n it was like a trigger...
i told warn him n then he don dare touch.i kept watch of his hand n i knew once or twice he wanted to reach out to eat.i pity him.bt then kip telin myself he don desrve it.
bt wen he ask"eh take ur food cn?"i like walao....k la take then he quickli boot lick!rai ws like c la wan act good la....n the way he boot lick suck la...like tellin me porn website.i play along...
n anw it was funny how some ppl watch weird porn!damn funny.also gt to know abt mr yeo history...basicly a math is v v v v fun!

then nid stay back 4 normala.1 guy nv come.i gt to save him by tellin bullshit "truth".
then me n kumar gt away.summore gt chcolate from her:D:D:D
waited 4 vellan n takuya finish work...look at pds from far.cute sia...

then go hm...wlk w vellan.saw the indian security....
he kept jaywlkin...act cool izzit?me n vellan then joke arnd...(some were little racist)...

arh tmr...wearin batik?ben will pinjam.wanted sumtin new tis yr.knaw alot wont wear costume...
guess some gal wont wear typical cheongsam...(right spllin no?)good la.though i tink they look sexy.seeing sometin new wud b lovely.more special.

lets c hu gts typical n hu is special

love it

feelin so small in ur embrace,
soothes n clams my heart.
sometimes i wanna stay in ur embrace.
its like being shelled in you...

a little of here n thr...

sch start was ok....the performance ws like...borin n v short....

mt class ok la...
then...other subject notin special...

at 1230 we finish sch.left 5 of us n hy to help move table.
then we started to play.
then sumtin crap hapen.ben spit.(donoe if he purposeli)...i gt piss.i start to provoke him.pushin n n stuff.i noe he will gt angry.bt he didnt retaliate...hariz gt push off..haix.at last vellan pull me.i try cool down n telll ben gt lost....

after tat the day bcum suck.
listenin compre was easy...
go hm take bus w sab....

wen at hm i listen to 'harapan'(i noe v jiwang)then rmb abt ben.its our song.wen i broke up n feelin down we sat tgt like to gay n listen to the song.i began regret pushin ben.the sumtin nice hapen.i check my hp n thr ben name pops up.he told me he was listenin to harapan n tot of me n he say he sori he was wrong.n of cuz i say it was my fault to.then ya all those love you bro cum out...:Pn yeah tings gt better yeah!

a little of here n thr...

nafa....

arh gt hyper today:D

nafa was like shit.shuttle run the first trial i cud hv gotten 8 second!(cuz nigel gt ++)so i like f up!how the hell did the shuttle cork slip off?n y didnt i just cont run!the followin run was shit.i tottaly lose concentration n nearly did split:P
sit n reach 3 try.vast improvement btwin 2nd n 3rd try.
chin up was damn...k i gt to admit i wanted to show off bt wrong move.wen i reach 10 i hang down.hold 1 hand...the do 1 more.then kip changin hand...:Pat last reli cnt make it...damn!
standin board jump 2nd...shit cud hv done better.5 more cn!

then ya hariz gt injured.cnt move so i told him i wud piggyback.all the way to p.e rm.slow n steady bt he say still pain.then me n kumar did fireman style thingy...to carry hariz.sum idiots purposely cover our way.gt angry i shouted move off ppl injured.tat idiot cn say o reli injured ah?
kumar damn piss say "o no we actin"lol...goin up the stairs was a little difficult.kumar was taller n hariz weight was like on me...bt at last we did it:D

class was fun.eng..jon funny tlk abt havin many partners to hv sex.n say i also do the same HAHA!
oya ms huang say i handsome haha:Dshe came to me n say u khalid right i saw ur pic n u handsome ah.haha....k tis is just 4 fun kaes!
pHYSIC IS FUN!SOME PPL SAY IT SUCKS I DONOE Y!!!???
chem was soso...
math...tlk to ben...he dowan to gv in to ms normala.haix.bt cher was good lol.damn cute!then in the class she say abt being tight.then tat time im nt tinkin dirty.then i look at her.she look at me.she smile.then dirty thoughts came into me.i smile.haha.then she say i dirty wat the.

thr was tis group of sec 1...we tlk.they gt all....hyper...i left...

s.s mr chua was late...easy la test...

go hm gt raz again.tis time we tlk abit.o c bf eh!!!anw wat abt easier to approach?means number?

yeah funn la today.i hapi the guys did their best.i hapi i help nigel.i hapi collin show us that he care abt class.so yeah thx ppl 4 makin a good day.everyone did!

arh wrong time to rest

woke up late.feelin tired....then read physic abit.

erm wat else...notin much...

went to cut hair.damn gt tail nv cut.then go library.wlk2...been long time wlkin alone without family members,frend n...stuf....so was like damn free...

then ya watch tv read comic...nice....

oya ytd wen gt to pinch yi jin n shafiq...douheng too...fun!thx to new batch of nco!

pop for 09/10...

woke up early.then gt ready for pop.
its was rainin heavili...

wen reach sch mit douheng.
soon the others come in..
kacau2 n play.at last the parade start.wow nice...

at lt rm sat infront to gv support to sec 3 n others.their pds was v nervous.i infront tellin them wat to do:PPROUD OF THEM MAN!!!!!!MUACKXXXXX

bahrain is a gd dancer man haha!pop overall was gd!well done ncos!

after tat play badminton.then tlk2....
go eat at hg pt.then buy bdae cake 4 july bdae ....baby?(tats wat rh call them)...
rh was fun.so long nv tlk to her.missssssss her!then wen tlk abt our history she told me how bad i was...haix...sori rh.....

k la v tired...
oya wow hy wear colour match!STALKER!

fuck you

sch was ok...then gt s.s....easy la.then phy test gt v v gd mark...
however the shit ting shadow tis shit....

wanted to wlk arnd...bt gt to go back sch.then kena f.feel more f.wen off go street soccer.try peace n gt f.nv play cuz feelin f.
then wen wan go hm gt typical minah shoutin match w us.i nv really fight except sayin don waste time.zamir was like "typical malay!oi take bag later kena steal"...lol.
then wlkin mit ah lian....lol...she gt guts.i like...bt still gt f....

go hm tlk to ben...relive sum f....

so today sum up is still an f day.

tmr pop...confirm alot of drama.bet w sum1....
erm.yeah.....

slap myself!how cn i 4gt

today wlkin back from amth class saw ms james:D
my a mth class sang her hapie bdae n soon she bgan huggin the gals
me vellan n wei jie just look..then i kacua wan hug:P
ms james said"if u wanna hug its alrite u noe?"so i hug her!HEHE.n she is nt tat fat.i cn feel her arms arnd me...i can onli pat her...haha then wlk away feelin weird....wow i hug ms james:D

disenchanted..oohhh....

thx rai for tellin me wat it means.so it bcum my title....hehe

today after tellin sum1 i try b hapi...today nearly bcum a perfect day.
came sch tlk abt the netball gal then kacau kacau...
gt hair check...gt kena compare to a botak boy so kena go out.wat a joke.-.-
sit thr make myself like hm....
n sumtin nice hapen.mr farid bcum nicer to me.he came to me...luk at me...i luk back then he say he cnt c y i kena caught.he told me to go toilet do sumtin to hair n tell mr lim to define my hair.at last i gt away.wow mr farid gtin cool w me(after the bullyin case he nv tlk to me n will nv luk at me even if he tlkin to sum1 bside me.he also catch me 4 stupid reason)nw he is cool:)

chem kacau ppl...then erm...blabla...eng...gd...tlk abt unhygenic food n how stupidli innocent i was wen i sec 1...then erm others was ok...

math acp fun!!!!kacau ms normala to max!make her paiseh like cb!my class will noe wat hapen!haha...

bt then start sumtin shit.ppl wan threaten me.telin me stupid stuff...wth...
haix...go hm...rest abit then go 4 short jog n sum chin up....then back hm...wash up.read s.s.seems easy so i stop.tlk to sum1 abt his prob.haha 5a1 superhero here to help:P

cnt tink of a title...again

came sch early.ben avoid me.i too try avoid.bt i noe it wont b long 4 us to tlk.

s.s was...erm quite fun bt gt separated from vellan...
math gt test.ms normala look damn tired n she nearly doze of.i saw it then she paiseh...haha.then saw ben look.wen i look back he turn...lol...

then lunch nv go down...no mood.then the 5 others came back n try b funny.then suddenli ben try tlkin.then we two tlk alr.nv did say sori bt haix don care la.we bros man.
a math was funny!mr yeo of cuz tell lots of joke n the best part wen we in the class then this sec 3 or 4 gal was outside the class.she did her hair n act cute n i guess she nv realise thr is a class in the rm.the whole class started laughin!n she realise thr is ppl in the rm n wlk away...lol paiseh sia.

then wanted go hm...bt wan mit...bt alas doesnt reli work...so end up goin hm feelin shit.arh......boo.....

arh...tired of gtin piss...bt...

ytd...wanted take bus..then gt raz...it was weird nt tlkin so much...the awkward silence was like being in the middle of an empty land...

today...came to sch being ok.rejected again.
watch netball gal play.then out of the blue a ball hit kumar 's face.the gal wanted to say sori bt i said no nid s kumar is a big boys he cn take hit.he was fumin mad w me...haha.

sch started slow....the tlk was v meaninful...mt class was...fine?
wen it was s.s time i gt f.i gt angry wen mr chua scolded vellan.then vellan tell me its ok.so i cont w disturbin mr chua.he said it was his job to stress student.logic?no.n i pity ruting.wen i try to defend.i end up being punish...damn....

then tings gt worst in eng.over seats i gt angry.just bcuz ben showed face i gt piss and nearly did sumtin.gd ting ben just kept quiet.i then did my speech...blabla.lunch break...wen to teachers 4 dpa help.k im in the wrong bt mr soo agreed to help n told me to b in charge in the i room.many teachers came n said ok after i told them the prob.bt then mr tan came in n...told us off?it wasnt reli tell us off bt i guess i was too...sensitive?i told vellan to off the com.mr tan(i tink)realise i angry n said tat onli two at a time in the rm.i said 4gt it n wlk off.damn he is my fav teacher...after normala....
then ms teo came to class slightly late.i told her off.wen she asked wat hapen i answered tat sum teachers are bullshit.i actually use the word!ARH...then kip sayin shit teacher n stuff.then ms teo said she wud let us use her lappy.i mean i feel damn wrong n told her i owe her two.haha she 4gt last yr on her bdae i made her stay back.she was like eh u rmb?!
of cuz....haha
then she told me off nicely which i take lightli.n ask her if she wan me blanja bbt.she dowan.lol cutest teacher.

eng acp no class...cb....

im sori i gt angry!

arh...

today must go gym again...cuz sis wan...two days straight...then later tmr p.e...nafa....die....

sibs wan wlk wlk...i wan go hm....so we argue...
so eat at kfc...dammit...go gym then eat kfc?!walao...

then gt hm...try study...

haix...i donoe wats wrong w me.i gt angry v easily.too easily tat nv tlk to mum 4 two days alr...it sucks.i just tell mum kpo n she gt sad.i cn understand y.stupid me...

i nv wan to gt angry bt nwadays i always do...at little ting i gt angry.
i also realise i gt angry wen i c multi storey carpark...tat time wlk w a frend.then wen i saw the multi storey carpark i gt v angry n started to breathe heavily.n wen my frend ask i told him off.i wlk away.wen im w famlily n we park at multi storey carpark i wud gt v angry n run out of patience.i will wlk first.

i shud reli stop bt i cnt.y!FUCK!

y cnt study....

mornin...go gym w vellan...then saw the two gals vellan ask 4 no.it ws awkward...4 vellan tat is...
then two other join us...

wen gt hm realise mum's frend visit our the hse.then cuzin...guess today abit weird...

watch goal 2..

hy wat happen u!?sick?gt well soon ya?n hope everytin goes well yeah...!

oya i sms cikgu juriah n tlk abt oral...sori cikgu

oral!=D

malay class.ok la...feelin nervous....
other subject good...?

phy.cn i say easy?bt cnt act...so chill...wAIT 4 result ya....

then go oral...damn im the third...it sucks...the oral...easy...bt i noe i flunk it.though i made them laugh to loosen tings up.it was stressfull....
in the end i tink i spent less then 5 min in the room?it was so stupid...in quarantine rm cn still play...walao...

dou heng came back.so challenge him to pds.guess he is still better cuz he is after all the person hu teach me.bt it was damn fun.he did a move n i hv to follow.then he did two hand spin n stuf n i follow then it was quite cool...we end it like act like tat.he ended w the risin sun i ended w the sundown?haha

at last gt angry w a guy n a gal.atti.nearly went out of control w the guy

acceptance

came sch...a little late...suppose to mit earlier...tlk to audrey....:(...

sch start n notin special...
bt recess time...ben storm off...tears in his eyes...c.e lesson i told others to go away n tlk to him...gv a little advice.....

wow today 2 ''case'' solve!haha best...!

tlk to sec 3...they r lovely bunch....nt a lot of prob.even joshua is bcumin v v v good.so proud of him.just rmb guys accept each other n help those in nid.

shar goin away again?....haix...take care!bon voyage....

....by one of the bro..."lets go pikenic!"

oya band!

yes i like it!
band!
i cn shout yeah!

bt wait...y?i tot i lost it...?

bt at indoor stadium i shouted power bowen!n some band members hear it!!!!nt my two bro onli!i tot the two of them just wan make me happy bt it seems some ppl heard it yeah!GO BOWEN BAND!GO NP!GO SHARINA!!!

erm...go where?.....

fail....

ytd...was a dissapointin day...i realise i failed.i love the ppl.bt i failed.it sucks.i nearly flare bt i guess its nt worth it........
u guys just nid to learn more.
hmm...bt ytd gt to kacau mr chua...he scolded me...bt wasnt in the mood to gt angry cuz vellan is thr bside me being joker...so disturb mr chua...he came to my table n scold me.i just said "cher sorry la bt cher i love you...you love me right?tats y..."amazinli he nn gt angry n keep quiet.cute sia.

today seems....nice?
some ppl tell me their prob...it makes me happier...stupid?no i dont tink so...
kacau2 ppl....hmm....oya sumtin abt my bros in sch...one of them damn cute...he cnt say handsome properli...so everytime he one suck up,he would say"eh brother i love you la u v hamsun."lol damn funny...gt alots more bt ya next time yo...
hmm wat else...alot hapen...bt just tat my mind is disturb...so ya

adios!yeah spain n germany soon!!!

youth day...

woke up...feelin tired...bt then still wan go gym...

hariz came late...onli me n him today...i went up first....
gym havin a make over...nice...

hariz came at 10 plus...
tlk abt hmwk n soccer...
then wen we were doin i saw thr was tis group(consist of 3 gals twwo boys n 1 lady...hu i guess the teacher)...i did the semi chin up(i dont noe wats the real name its whr ur leg hv to b bent)n start doin...wen i gt down the gals wanted to do the same...wen two of the gal shove a gal to do it first tat gal nearly fall...gd ting the other two catches her...of course i tried to save.
then i paiseh to tell them how to do it so told hariz to show them.hariz didnt nid to b told twice n went up n did it...
then the the teacher came w the two guys n they try do...i guess it was their first time since none of them noe wat to do.i told hariz to tell the teacher on how to do it easily...after the 3 gals go to the threadmill i went up to the teacher n the two boys.guess i bcome the instructer...
i teach...then went they still seems so blur i told them to observe how i do it...n at last they cn...n after tat kip repeatin thnk you...

another day of a memorable day at the gym...hmm did i tell u guys?
thr was incident whr vellan ask 4 number...tis...then i nearly gt fight...at last the most memorable...wen i was w vellan(tat time onli vellan n me went 4 gym)ve inside the toilet n thr was tis guys...i told vellan confirm he gay by the way he act...vellan say he wan c how gay gt their partner so i hide in a cubicle n waited while vellan act s if he alone in the toilet...the gay did wat a gay will do...n wen i went out tat gay left in a hurry...lol we gt a good laugh...vellan certainly learnt sumtin.hehe

erm anw shar n me ok already yeah!!!!!!!

long day

woke up...do a little bit of tis n tat...how the hell did argentina lose 4 to nil!alamak....
go pay respect to the ppl tat left...i mean reli...the whole family wen cemetari...
ah...seems sad to go thr...i mean of course hu wud b hapi?
bt still its nice...

then wen to fav uncle hse...pity him...he is nt well...reli nt well...
bt he still try gv tat cheerfull smile n kacau me...
had a great time thr....

then went to beach...play play thr....
arh tired...

im just pathetic....

the day start slow...borin stuff....
then sharina sms to go syf...at first didnt wan go...bt then change mind n went...

met the two guys r n j.n shar of cuz.
then gt to noe sum1 wud b thr.n its totally piss me off.r n j told me to chill...im like ok.today shud b a gd day since shar is thr.

followed shar to look look bowen band n kacau mr khoo...i began to gtin cool...then wen we went inside the stadium saw bowenian n kacau abit...
wen im already chill tat sum1 piss me again.kept tlkin n tlkin.n abt gals.n all the pic came into my mind.
i wanted to f.so i did sumtin.
told r n j to sit w me.so i cool again.bowen came in n every1 was quiet...i shouted go bowen.since its dark i tot noe one wud noe its me.then ppl turn to me...i paiseh..r n j laughin....

then tat sum1 tlk abt gals n gal stuff n it suck!he hv no respect 4 any gal.come on.
im bad bt nt monster.
i sms her if she wud 4gv him.n she said yes.it sucks.y r gals too good?even wen the guys is like shit.ok even me.if im like shit pls f me up n tell me.

AFTER the syf.tlk to shar.take pic.n nt happy.

its dark.its night.its my area.n wat did i do?i call them n say no nd.n then went askin y i gt notin to say except tell them i said no means no.n it suck.tat sum1 mit the partner so i went away w r n j.told them i wud leave.tryin to smile.
it suck.1 part of me said i wan to change n 1 part of me say im stupid.
shar kip askin wat hapen.im sori i gtg.if i dont it wud b hell.
tis is kallang n its easy to bring hell trust me.n i didnt.so so so so so stupid.
then wen wlkin saw bowen.went thr n kacau ms normala.again i smile.wen im angry?

one ting 4 sure to sum it up.im just pathetic.i blew a chance tat will nt come again.

xhausted....

today...nice...math no ms normala...haha...mit her at staff rm n kacau...

geog kacau ms teo b4 she go inside class...n gt targeted by her...
though it may b lame...even 4 me do tis shit..i realise teacher will smile...though some may say its fake...actually cn c the sinceriti cuz of the way they will then tlk to u n luk at u....

c i cant write tat much....my mind just seem so...heavy...tired....yaddayadda...
hy say my mind is xhausted tinkin how wud i help her(nt hy)....
haix....arh.........................................

bt goin gym tmr then...tired...bt maybe jog...c i gt energy nt....

hy thnks 4 it!n cikgu juriah thx 4 the cute present 4 ur malay class!

alot of tings in my mine...

chem was...good...nid to share work...n used kumar paper....

eng was...easy...

a math gt alot of tension...bt then cool mr yeo made the class fun n enjoyable...
c.e was a little weird...

stayed back actually cuz one sec 1 was to mit...n then nv...gt v angry bcuz tat sec 1 wasted my time....n tat sec 1 kip sayin sorry....f la...
gd ting thr is kumar n ben...
we go fitness corner n train kumar do chin up...he is doin well...kip it up...

i gt secrets...n it hurt alot in.knowin so much.n cn do so little suck...sori to ppl hu tink i cud tell u wat hapen...it is a secret...i cnt tell anyone.1 tat is not mine to share.

i just wan try b happy nw...distracted from the part tat is killin me....
i hope i do nt regret my decision.